I need to be embarrassed and embrace:

Moments keep moving, and I still feel the same. Feeling as if I’m about to burst at any moment. But ive felt like this for weeks. And I’m not sure what else I can do in order to get what I need to release out into the universe.

Drowning my voice with the sound of my music. Disappearing from my own life for weeks at a time. Only to come back stronger or to at all. I will run once more, I will bloom.

Wanting to hear the voice I’ve always wanted to hear be right I front of me. Telling me what I have to do to keep above the tide. I will do the same, for I’ve always wanted to but w to scared to say it all. Screaming at me while I scream back. Pitching each others skin just so we know we’re here once more. Tightening our grips to feel the pain. Burning tears falling down our faces. Only to know we are free and alive to be who we always wanted to be. Lovers of the night.

I’m building a boat:

This life time is too short to not be who you really want to be. Living with others surrounding you who help eliminate your true individual self. I don’t want to be doubted for love, or how much I put into it. Things are the way they are, we live on, but there is always another way things can work out. Every relationship on my life has ended for some reason and begun again and then stopped and started again. I don’t expect the cycle to continue on always, but sometimes there is unfinished buisness. Where there is still curiosity. Being alone is something I will eventually get used to. It’s been so long since I’ve completely depended on myself. It’s about time.

Work is time to get inspired for my future; not only is it the source of me moving out and on my own with a perfect roommate, but it also has showed me I can succeed once I decide to move and open up my own little cafe where everything is made with love and positive vibes.

Everything will come together in time, I just have to continue on and keep my dream alive.

I build all my temples beneath the blue sky

Didicoy:”Gypsies” travellers with mixed Romani blood.